Incredible Urge

About a week and a half ago Jason and I met with a realtor to short sell the house,

which has put the Haus von Graf into a dust devil.

Monday we met with the Realtor to go over more documents, had to bump physical therapy earlier so we could be to BG's appt on time. Tuesday, I worked most of the day, went to a friends for dinner so the missionaries could come eat, then went to our child birthing class (I went with my friend and we left the guys at home since it was La Leche League meeting that night). Wednesday, we had a dr appt in the morning, followed by consult with the sister about the baby shower, squeezed in a realtor meeting (which is when she told us she'd be coming over to take pic's of the house. AAAGH!), physical therapy, then instead of me going to school, I went home to start cleaning the house and go to a Scout Meeting.

It has been a pretty hectic week. However, this morning I had an experience which made none of that matter.

I woke up this morning and BG was polled comfortably on my right side. I had rolled onto my back and the right side of my belly was 2 inches higher than my left. I absolutely loved it. As I sat up, I had the most incredible urge to hold him. To snuggle him. To love him with all my being. As I pictured myself holding him, a sense of calm came over me and the situation made me think,

When BG is finally here on this earth with me and his daddy, we will be a few months from now and a lot of this stress will be gone. Childbirth Classes will be over. School will be nearly over. Jason will be healed, working again and won't have so many appointments. Our house, may be sold, may not be; but we'll be 85% packed so it won't be so hectic to move.

My mom and I always say that this little guy will change so many things in my life and others, but he won't change them. He already is changing lives.