37 week appointment

I had an appointment today with the dr and the ultrasound tech. The ultrasound tech measured me to see how BG is growing and to see what it's looking like for delivery date and whatnot.

While waiting in the waiting room, I had some cold water and shortly thereafter BG got the hiccups. This is only the second time I have noticed that it was actual hiccups. And, I saw my belly twitch just like Momma Graf said it does.

We had our ultrasound first, obviously. Now, the one thing that bugs me severely about ultrasound tech's is that they are able to talk. I don't mean that in any disrespect, but the girl had me very nervous when we were escorted back out to the waiting room. She was telling me that his length looks good. He's crammed in there (which we already knew). His fluid levels look low. This may cause some concern and the dr may admit me to the hospital so we can start labor. The levels were at an 8. 10 is great. 4 is terrible. My worst fear... being induced. I am a firm believer in letting the kid come when he's ready! Now, she's telling me that I may be getting induced this week. Not what I was wanting.

She then told me that he is weighing about 7 lbs 7 oz. However, these are only estimates and they can be wrong up to 18 oz either way. So, I could have an 8.8 lb baby or a 6.5 lb baby? I'm no math whiz, but that is an awfully big gap! Then, she tells me, like she did before, that I am measuring a week ahead of schedule. That BG is large for where I am in pregnancy. Ok. Again. I am not an average size woman. WHO ARE YOU COMPARING ME TO?! For a German girl, I think I'm pretty average. I wonder what size babies usually come out of German size women?! Maybe in fact I'm measuring small!!! So, she moves my due date up which is the other thing that peeves me.

I am not a girl that got knocked up and had an oops! baby. We tried having a baby for a couple years! I took a test on a Friday, it was negative and then the very next Wednesday it was positive. With letting everyone in that office know everything about mine and Jason's "business" I think I can say when the conception date is and just cause he's measuring "bigger than the normal American woman's baby" - which who knows what a normal American woman's baby is anymore, I think it's safe to say that my due date is still May 13!!! If he comes a little early, fine! If he comes a little late, fine! But quit telling me that he's gonna come early just cause he's measuring big! oy.

Ok. Enough ranting.

I then wait to see the dr. We go over when I should leave work. We decided I will stay til I have the baby. I'm healthy, he's healthy. Not a big deal. AND, the hospital is only 3 minutes away. We went over heartburn. Rx called in. Cervix checked and we are 70% effaced / 2 cm dilated. They also sent me home with my records so I can take them to the hospital.

I'm a little _______ right now. You can fill in the blank with whatever you feel like cause I'm feeling so many different things right now. I'm so stoked to have BG here. Everyone keeps saying a few days and he'll be here. I really hope he waits about a week! I'm so nervous cause I don't know if I can be the tough cookie I think I can sometimes be. I know Jason knows I can do this, which is why I'm glad he's the one coaching me through... but I am terrified! I still don't have birth plans done. Nor do I have the "notices" done for letting nurses know they are not to give BG bottles or pacifiers. I haven't packed. The car is immaculately clean, but car seat is still not installed. And, even though I'm paranoid, nervous, frightened, scared and worry some, I am elated, excited, anxious and whelmed to have my little guy here in my arms. I dream of holding him, looking at him and him looking back with those cute little squinty newborn eyes knowing that we will be an eternal happy family. Those eyes that were just staring at Heavenly Father's. Those eyes that will one day squint at me and maybe tell me I'm irritating him. Or that he loves me. Or that he's happy. *sigh* This is what I am on this earth for. I can't wait!